Keep Inspiring Others :D

It's really good to hear that you've been inspired other people. Hell yeah, the good feeling about it is pretty awesome. 

Hurm, I talked much about myself these few days, which I think it's actually don't give any advantages or good things to others. So, lets change the topic and makes life, for both of me and you better :)

Inspire. Inspiration. A good word. To me, personally, to inspire others to do something good in their life is such a, not only good thing, but definitely great thing to be done. My story started right after I finished my pre-U studies at F. T. Labuan, Malaysia. But it's not really the starting of the story. 

It's few days before Christmas, I'm so excited that day, packing up my things. 'Cause I'm going to celebrate Christmas in summer, sounds weird, but the thing is, it's summer in New Zealand. I've planned my vacation since I finished my pre-U (as I told before) and it's getting greater when the date falls on the right time, which the same date as my study week holiday (the holiday provided by the university for students to do revision before taking final examination). I already knew it'll be an off day for Xmas at that time, but I'm not sure about how long it'll be because we don't have our winter here, in the equator.

Haih, I'm not even telling the main point yet -_-" Okay, make the story short and sweet. My flight to Christchurch, NZ is on Sunday before Xmas (that fell on Tuesday). To bad, I've received a very bad news from Ujung Pandang, Indonesia two days before my flight. My granddad's died.

I were so down on that day, and yes, until my trip day. I went to the airport that Sunday morning, but I don't make it, I don't make the fly. Hell yeah, a week after, I then realized that I'd burned 2k bucks. What a waste. Yeah, everybody tells me that I should just go. But the feeling of losing someone in your life isn't a good feeling. I don't feel good about it. And I shouldn't.

Call me crazy. I do. most of my friend call me so. To those who knows my story, they don't really understand me, most of them never. However, I really glad to know that my friend, my new best friend get inspired with it. The reason I planned my trip is to have an experience of dealing with the world on my own. So this friend tells me, he going to plan the same vacation as I do as he's inspired on my courage (he said so). 

I'm so happy to hear that.Even it's not really a big matter, it's not really a real-good-thing, but for me, to inspire other meant so much. 

Nah, I'm not going to inspire one person only. Now, why don't we do this one great thing, let's inspire the globe!!! I heard somewhere (not sure) that if we inspired one person today, he or she will inspire another one person tomorrow. In that case, you'll have the credit instead him or her. I, personally don't have a good inspiring tail to be shared. Yet, few video from YouTube might be so much helped. Enjoy!

Red (Hong Yi): To me love is...

Syaz & Rishi: The Mischievous Duo With Big Hearts

Teresa Goh: A 71 years old marathon runner

That's a lot, btw all the video are credited to GoBeyond. 

I'd inpired much, hope you so :)

Me-Egoist-Selfish.

I'm too proud sticking with my ego closest. Yeah, people call me as my dad's son. Yeah, both of us share that not-really-a-good-thing, keras kepala.

Maybe I'm an egoist. People who knows me well knew that I'm not a good person, literally good. "But I like you because of two things, you can easily ask forgiveness for something you've never did and you thankful much", that's my very best friend told me. Is it true? Idk.

I'm still thinking that I have big ego. Don't you think so? There's a time, lot of times perhaps, I do ask apology for something that directly, or indirectly not related to me. But, I know what I'm doing. Why I did that. It's for my own good for damn freaking sure.

Egoistic, that's me.

Nah, that's the matter now. I do something -pretty obvious- for my own self. Selfish? Hell no, it's call taking advantages. What ever la, I know I have that bad behaviour, as long as I don't involve any of you at that period of time, it's none of your business, isn't it?

Oh, back to the story all about, why I think I'm damn freaking ego. 'Cause I always like that. I abundant my friend just like that, whenever I've problem with him or her. And yes, I did the same insanity to those who've problems with me (even if I'm okay with them). YODO. I'll die only once. Thus, to make myself happy is a compulsory. To make it like that, I need to leave the sadness behind, which literally pointed to the problems. Yeah, I live my life that way.

While the others having problem with me, I'm not gonna give a damn to them. The more I ignore you, the more you feel the pain. You don't need to trust me, just trust God. And, if you're waiting for me to ask an apology for your own problem (with me), don't ever expect you'll get one. You'll never get it. 

I always have a thought of each and every person 

"Live with your own risk"

Responsibility III (Marriage Version)

Everybody's talking about wedding, bla bla bla... 

I don't know why, the truth is, it's kinda annoy me directly. 

Yet I like something about blogwalking, different perceptions from different background of writer. 

Look at what Hadzrinaqmal, Nashuaaa, and my bro Lidah said about kahwin.

Well, I'm not really into the mood to talk about this bullshit things. It just maybe I'm, going to be 20 this October, so people (especially my family) keep asking the same question all over again, frequently (x_x) So, I'm having a thought now to keep their damn freaking mouth shut.

Nah, at first, I'm going to reveal my own secret, not really a secret, it just a thing that no one ever know before but my mom and I. Three years ago.

"Mom, I wanna get married"

Can you guess what my mom going to say to her 17 years old son? I bet you'll guess it wrong. Simple, she answered.

"Finish your SPM (O-level), get a job, earn some money, then you can get what   "you want. Anything you wants."

Anything.

Haih, I love my mom so much, she always make sure I have the best. Well, what she'd said is not a matter, I'm only 17 at that time, I didn't even see how big the world is... I know she's actually giving 

My last Eidul Fitri with my mom, 2011 :'(

me a little small idea on how my life should look like. The rest, I need to explore myself. 

Dear mom, I miss you damn much, much, much. It's been half a year I'm away from home, I'm not that 17 years old boy anymore. I'm a man-to-be that trying to figure out how my life, my own life is going to be. I'm the one that learning how to be more responsible, to know my responsibility/ies.

Now, the time, I know how hard, how rough a marriage without responsibility. As a man, I'm going to be on the top of the family chart. Yeah, I'm the one that will be the bucks source for the family. The one with responsibility, to make sure my lucky pretty wife have her bed comfortly, to make sure my children have their breakfast everyday before school, to make sure this, to make sure that, bla bla bla...

The point is, I have a big, massive responsibility to hold to, to work on to. And to make sure I really do understand how the word "responsibility" is defined, I have to be prepared at first. Now! Because If I don't get myself prepared now, the time will make my life worse.

So what I'm going to do now??? (I should stop asking no one) Yup, follow my mom's advice three years ago :) Fyi, I'm doing my undergraduate study now. When my mom tells me to finish my O-level then find a job, I know she's actually telling me to finish my study (it's a metaphore, perhaps). It's a crystal-view clear, I'm going to finish my study at first as a preparation to have bigger, much more responsibilities.

If someone's reading this knows my mom, tell her I miss her :'),:

Curiosity

"Curiosity is an asset"

Do you ever wonder of something? Anything? I do, always. Each and every time, there's always curiosity haunted myself. Idk, it happens almost every time. Makes me figure out, what actually it is? Thinking and thinking.

I hate this feeling, the felling of nothing, nothing inside my not-so-working brain. The feeling of knowing nothing, yet there are actually something. The feeling of you're the only one who don't know that something. The thought of you're an idiot. The stupidity inside your own self. The curiosity. Yes that's is it.

Know what? When there is curiosity, there is also question. When it comes to question, then it'll go to another question. The thought, the way we handle the thinking skills, the creative thinking skills, the critical thinking skills. Yes, it is. Oh wait, where do we start just now?? Oh, curiosity. Again, the curiosity always make us wonder, curious.

Curiosity will always end with questions. Credit.

Okay, stop with the "Bla bla bla". Curiosity have been grown up together with me personally. Few months ago, I just realized that this curiosity is actually can be a huge, damn huge asset for anyone of us. Just if we know how it's work. The story started when there's a friend of mine (we're not really close before) asking me a favor if I wanted to help him on a project. So, I ask him what's the project about. He said, "Secret".

Ah, I hate it. He'll only tell me when I say yes to him. how could I say yes to something that I've no idea what's it about. Yet, my curiosity is at the max. But I won't let myself fall for nothing. Well, I'm quite tricky btw. I told him that if it's a business things, I'm not interested at all. Too bad, he lied to me. He said it's not a business, but it is. He introduced me to this one business, MLM. I don't really interested in that, so I refuse to join. 

Yeah, that what I'm talking about. Curiosity is always a hidden asset of someone on everyone else. And yup, that friend of mine got me by this thing, curiosity. It's like a human nature to know what's happening, what's going on. That's curiosity.

Sometimes I curious, who am I?

Trust

It's Friday here. I really have a great time with my friend from Italy, Alessia Riscica. What I like the most is when we keep arguing about the time, really love how the mother earth works, the jet lag :) Well, tbh late night conversation is always the best.

The bad behavior of mine is, I'll always say "yes, but not now" (x_x)

What ever, it's not the big deal either. My peace story is about this one very very important thing, trust. It's started when last friday. I went to my bro's workplace. Just for fun, I'm on my semester break, so it's kinda boring. So, he ask for a lil help from me. Since I've nothing to do also, do some works for extra money on my holiday might be a great idea, isn't it? :D

Yeah, stop the nonsense. It's about the work actually. I help my bro to install his new glass door in both bathroom at the condo. So, we gotta grill the floor, install the screw plug, then bla bla bla.. My bro's doing the grill thing, but when it comes to the last hole, he ask me to do it. Belajar katanya. I do agree with him, that's might useful to me to learn new thing. Yet I refuse to do so. Haih, I don't know why (x_x) I told him that I'm not ready still. 

Although it's not a big matter, I'm kinda disappointed with myself. Do you know why? That's the story about. The trust, I don't trust myself.

"Someday" seems the best excuse I always have -_-"