The Day :(:

So, today is the day.

"Oh Allah, please strengthen my soul "

What can I say anymore... Butterfly in the stomach??? I feel like the whole zoo inside of mine


 :(:


Just wanna thank my bro for giving me some new hope here.

Oh yeah, btw, here is my result, Thank God.

Mirror || rorriM

Mirror :) Hey, why with the mirror things? LOL, sounds ridiculous... I'm not going to talk about the wall-mirror dear, the story is about self-mirror. Yup, the PEACE story is about mirroring yourselves.

Mirror mirror in the wall, who's the ugliest of the all???

Do you ever try this? What did you see? Yourselves or someone else? A person or many persons?
Look at yourselves, via the wall-mirror, your appearance, is it you? Or someone else?


Look at your attitude? Is it good enough to be seen by other people around you? Or is it your true character? Think about what have you done before. Is it good for you? Or vice versa?

Think about the purpose of your life. What do you do to achieve it? Do you gave your best? Is it enough? 


See yourselves, over the neurons of your brains (both left and right). How do you think of you? Or do you see anyone else is inside yourselves?

What is actually I wanna say? Simple, are you being yourselves? Or just a copy of someone else.

This is a story of myself, someone told me, to live in this modern era, being just yourselves isn't never enough to satisfy everybody. Do you agree? No, I'm not. For me, human being had been created imperfectly. So it is impossible to satisfy everybody. To be a 'fake' just to satisfy other people will mess your whole life. Last words:

Be yourselves,

Because everyone else

TAKEN.

a ..\/, PEACE story by a real-wanna-be boy.

Joking???

Yesterday night (its already dawn time actually) my brother ask me to update my blog. At first, "What the hell are you thinking?" because I really have  no idea what to write about. 

Think, think and think,

suddenly I remember something that I really wanna share before,

 but I keep forgotten.

Hey guys, do you ever see anyone else or yourself, maybe, experienced this situation? Yes, I were. It's hard to accept that actually. Even harder if heard that from your best friend or your special one. Even though you know that they are joking, but for me myself, it is still hurting me.


Yes, I guess all of us knew already what things can and can't be touched or played with whenever we're having conversation with others (for example, sensitive issues such races, faiths and politics). However, sometime we're forgot (don't even know at all perhaps) that physical appearance also can be categorized as a sensitive issue. Well, anything else that can be considered as important and serious issues, these things also categorized as sensitive.

Just be reminded,

we need to stop making fun of others.

Especially when it comes to a serious and sensitive issue.

From Borneo with ..\/, PEACE

malas nak tulis entry panjang-panjang sebab ada orang complain malas nak baca :) PEACE

Personality (o_x)

peace be upon you :)

As a free artist, personality is very important for me (not really for me, but for my models, LOL). Else, I'm a photogenic (perasan punya statement), personality is priority number one for someone like me :P Without a good personality, for sure its not easy to face the world. But, that's all only from the general observation. General? I mean,  physical observation. The reality

LOL, it's me posing like I'm the cutest boy ever :P

is, in a camera lenses, in the hang-photo-frame, or in a nonsense-writer blog, people can only see that physical personality, so sad.

So, if there is other personality than physical personality, what is it??? Think, because it is more important than physical personality to live in this era.

Lets talk about it, the 'inside' personality. Attitude. True character. What you can't see beyond the normal eyes (even the special one). And the one you (might) needed in any relationship. The heart. The feeling. True colors. Or whatever you called it. Well, I said I need the physical personality the most as an artist, but the truth is, I need this good 'inside' personality to live my life. Honesty. A good character, the way you act. I need it. Your attitude, yes, it is.


My PEACE story  is about personality, or on the other side, attitude. I may not a good boy (not so good to satisfy everybody), so my attitude. But, how bad I was, or I am, I still need someone who (can be categorised as) good to be with me, to be my friend, to be someone I love, or might be the one who love me. I need that character, the good one, the good attitude.

Seems nonsense when I said I need a good-attitude one as my friend (or whatever as I stated above). But why? Because for sure, I'm so sure, there is not even a single person in this world, living in this modern world, with that good character, good attitude all the time. Always being good? What the hell I'm thinking about? Angels from the heaven or what? Well, everybody know that. Even a good leader, (or maybe the best one) also did wrong things, sometimes.

Since, no body's perfect in this current world, I let dream as a dream. The reality is, I'm not the only dreamer. Everyone want something, that thing what I wanted. Thinking about this, why don't I be one? Why don't you be one? Why don't us be one? Why? Why? It's not hard to be a good boy, a good man, a good husband, a good dad. (If you are a believer like me) Just follow the God rules. Its all about being good. Whatever you belief in, either Catholics, Buddhism, Islam or what you holds to, it's (the faith) always teaching the good things.

Lets see what the world is going to be if I started being good, or shows some good attitude, personality. Well, someone like me (the old me) will be happy for me to be his friend. And if I treated him good, he'll pay me a favor, be good just like me. Now there are two boys, two good boys. Someone else will find me, or him, or both of us, just to be our friends (lets say I found one, and my good-friend found one), they'll be good to us, and be a good people. Don't you see that? Don't you see how the networking works? If I be one with the good personality, my friends also will show me the same. Then friends of my friends will show the same to my friends (to me too, perhaps). Make it short, the whole world will be good at the end. Oh God, this theory is awesome. Everyone you see, you meet, you hear, your family members, your friends, your lover(s) and even a stranger, who living in this world, show you a good personality. What else greater than this?

However, theory is only a theory. Because not even a person can prove it. Even you try, you still can't. Why do I talk about it then? Because I knew that, the King of kings had created heaven, and He created hell. He created angels, so devils. If you say God created good, He also the it one who created evil. Come on, I did say I wanna someone with a good personality to be my friend. But did I mention I want the whole world with it? NO!!! I don't want to live at that world (that I considered as "boring"). Even God knows it would be boring. That's why He created human beings with a multi-personality. The story end here, how good you wanna be, or you want someone to be, you'll never get it, God say so (and He knows the best).

Personally, I'm a friend of many types of people, different races, different faith, different skin, colors, different this and that. Because for me, the appearance means nothing to me, just like when you are a blind man , you'll be friends of all around you, with no bottom and ground.

Whoever we are,
the fat, the thin, the black, the brown,

the asian, the western,
we are all beautiful,
inside out.

Just if we have a good personality 

..\/, PEACE

Mentality...

"Owh, mentaliti orang sekarang" 

"Kolotnya (Mentaliti)" 

"Macam tu la kalau mentaliti dah tercemar" 

"Mentaliti anak muda, biasalah tu"

Ni adalah antara koleksi bait-bait dialog yang (mungkin) biasa menjadi hidangan halwa telinga kita bila berbicara tentang mentaliti. So, what mentality is actually about? What do you understand about mentality? Then how it can affect our life, personally and professionally? 

Source - IFITWEREMYHOME.com

Kenapa tiba-tiba terdetik nak menulis tentang mentaliti? The story started few years ago, I keep moving from one district to another, state to state (but still in Malaysia). Malaysia is not a big country as big as USA (but still a big one).

Since I've been moved around the country, I saw lots of different type of people, different culture, appearance and for sure without same mentality. To be honest, it is hard to get myself into the local community. What sad me the most when people talking about my origin with no knowledge (Normally, I call it as 'The clever stupidity'). While few of them 'kutuk-ing' (talking bad about) me in front just to get me angry. Yup, that's is how their mentality work, I think.

Few 'darn' sentences that I heard from them about myself.

(which mirroring my perception about them)

"Pathetic Sabahan" 

"Jungleboy" 

Well, who is actually care? ...L LOSER. Small mentality, small brain, (personally) they are just  uncivilizing  the civilization. 

However, it is just happened on the early of my existence there. Time flies, mestilah aku dapat sesuaikan diri at the end, kan? Finishing my secondary school at two modern states, Selangor and Kuala Lumpur, my own mentality changed. Now I see the world from a new different eyes. Learned to be a city boy, my life style also changed. But finally, I'd continue my study in my origin.

"Home sweet home" what a better words can replace it? Entering a college in Labuan, the baby state (Federal Territory actually) of the country. Labuan's mentality is more influenced by the Borneo states (Sabah and Sarawak). 

The moment I tell my friend that I actually was schooling at Kuala Lumpur, capital of Malaysia, they look at me like I'm a murderer. As my roommate, anytime when we have an argue on something, he'll blame my mentality at first.

"Inilah consequence mentaliti budak bandar"

I really hate that, people always blame it (mentality) when there is a misunderstanding. Come on, just because I were schooling at the capital city of the country, the way I think also as the way as them. No! people. 

So now, I've finished my college. Waiting for the call from the university for the next intake, I hope I can prepared myself well to face another different mentality of people. 

Be reminded, in my dictionary of life, 

mentality is only the way people think of you, 

or what people think about you. 

But, 

what people think about you is not define who you are, 

it define who they are.

Mentality = Mindset ~Wikipedia

..\/, PEACE

Sesalan :(

Title tak leh blah doe, cam tajuk novel jer (for sure love novel) x_x

Well, 'Sesalan'??? What should i talk about it??? I don't have much to say, guess.. Let me tell you where the story began. It started three days ago, I went to sleep during the midday.. ZZzzzZZZzzZZZZzzzz... (bosan)

Okay2, tak de mood nak tulis banyak2, masa bangun dari tidur tu, tengok2 dah terdelete folders (plural, means more than one) kat my phone tu... Macam nak mengamok satu rumah je, tapi sabar je laaa... Because I really have no idea who delete it (perhaps that phone delete it by itself, tau2 je la, Smart Phone la katakan). Since it happen around 2p.m, petang tu terus tak de mood nak gi maen badminton. (But the truth is, petang tu maen gak, LOL).. Terpaksa jak la maen sambil dengar satu lagu yang tak terdelete dalam phone tu. (Teenagers - MCR). owh, lupa lak, folder yang terdelete tu antaranya folder 'Music'. Then malam tu dah ada mood sikit, ngat nak gi backup folder 'Picture' kat lappy, tapi... (urghhhh, malas nak cite) folder 'Picture tu pun terdelete gak.. Thats what I called SESALAN :(

Sesal dahulu pendapatan,  

Sesal kemudian tidak berguna.

Macam tu la yang terjadi kat hamba yang malang ini o_o, Menyesal sebab tak pernah backup files and folders kat my phone tu, even there is lot of chance :( Until today, I still have only one song at my phone. then really have no idea what to do with it. Well, that's the end of my story.. But in this case, there is no such "Sesal dahulu pendapatan..." sebab tak de ape yang nak disesalkan before this..

Ni lagu "Beribu Sesalan" yang sedang feymes kat Malaysia sekarang :)

By the way, my story is only a small matter compared to what actually happened in this real world. When we talk about this 'Regretting' things, I have a bigger story to be shared.

A friend of my friend shared this story to him(my friend). She is married on her 18th birthday, now she is 19 years old. A young bride, she is suffered so much. She never knew that she'll becoming a marriage victim. Her husband is a successful businessman, rich, not too old for her (his age only around 24 to 27), but was a kind man. She never complained to her parents for arranging their wedding on her 18, because she said her parents know what best for her. Since  she is the oldest child in the family, she thought it is not good for the other siblings to see if she argue what had been planned by her parents.

After the engagement, she try to get to know more about her husband-to-be. Well, she satiesfied (I actually don't know how to define this 'satiesfied'). She said to her mom, "He is a kind man", she thanked her. 

But in this world, there is no such an happy ending story, while the story only begin after their marriage. (I'm not supposed to tell this) She is shocked on the first night, her husband raped her without no mercy. She told her mom, "but honey, in the religion, there is no things like that", her mom advised her. She tried to calm down, find the positive mind and pretended like it is a normal things as a wife. 

Too bad, the married-girl became worse after a month. Her husband's business is not so good after their wedding, and with no-rational-brain man, he blamed the innocence girl. (Stupid). She is not only a sex-slave to her own husband, but now she is also a victim of abused marriage. What sad her the most, when her family members 'close their eyes' like there is nothing happened.

Susan's 13-year-old son videotaped his mother being beaten by his father. ~source: OPRAH.com

Glad, right after the first anniversary, she came to my friend's (used to be her best friend) house. By telling all this lies, my friend asked her to make a police report. It is for her own safety and her child (she is pregnant, but I'm not sure how many months). She stayed on my friend's house until the police caught her husband. And now, she is back to her family.

See, this is the real regret. I don't know what to say anymore, just hoping she'll get justice on the court later. Jangan jadikan hidup anda dipenuhi sesalan. In conjunction of the Mother's Day celebration, 

PLEASE CHILDREN, DO RESPECT YOU MOTHER 

WHILE YOU STILL CAN DO SO,

because someday you'll losing her forever. 

..\/, PEACE 

Perception ...L

What did you see right after the title, "Perception"??? I mean, this "triple dots plus capital 'l'. Nampak macam pelik, ada orang nampak benda tu just benda biasa, ada orang perhaps thinks that it's my trademark or something (its actually a 'LOSER' sign, imagine how you do the sign with your fingers)... Soooo, did you see that??? Did you?? What? You didn't? Okay2, never mind x_x" lets take a look this one lak,

Face??? "Liar"??? You Decide.

Hah!!! Did you got the picture?? Well, some might say, it is an optical illusion, but I (maybe us) called it Perception. I hope you got the main idea, because it's only the beginning of the PEACE talk :)

Nah, the story begin here, when I was at the my college. A fine day, the day supposed to be a great day, but it was vice versa :( Normally I'll start my day by updating some motivational words on the social networking (One of my ways to motivate myself). So, tu dah jadi satu budaya for me, tapi... (jeng jeng jeng, suspen lak, LOL) rupa-rupanya there is someone yang misunderstood about this small thing. Dia ni (pompuan) tak puas hati with me, I don't know why?? Sebab kitorang memang tak rapat pown. Tapi suddenly dia comment/mention kat social network tu, cakap I'm fake (bukan dia ngaku dia fake, tapi dia cakap gua fake, ade ke patot), sapa tak panas bhai, kalau orang cakap benda-benda yang tak betul pasal kau.. Nasib kau pompuan, I respect laa jugak.

Dipendekkan cerita, ni la yang dinamakan persepsi (perception) dalam kehidupan. Apa yang kau buat/fikir tak sama dengan orang laen, rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain. Kalau kau compare ngan gambar tadi tu, ada paham tak? Persepsi ni sometimes can be good and opposite. Tetapi, ada perkara yang memberi impak yang besar kepada persepsi, 

"The Way You Think"

Yes, the way you think about someting/someone betul-betul memberi kesan kepada persepsi anda, when you think positive, then it'll be positive, while it'll be negative if you think so. (for sure - in this case - there is no natural, neither positive nor negative).

pompuan tu cam ni laa, kejap muda, kejap tua (iklan je ni)

Perception (from the Latin perceptio, percipio) is the organization, identification, and interpretation of sensory information in order to fabricate a mental representation through the process of transduction, which sensors in the body transform signals from the environment into encoded neural signals. 

~sumber Wikipedia (korang paham tak ape dia tulis, honestly aku tak paham x_x")

PERCEPTION? You decide! 

..\/, PEACE

I'm ready :)

Pelikkan, what should I ready for? LOL, actually, I'm ready to update this, my new blog. 

Well, perhaps this is the time for me to start some introduction. 

I'm a successful blog writer last time, from my view laa (x_x)" [masok bakul, angkat sendiri]. I think, its would be better if i don't mention my previous blog, its already became a nightmare for me. Since blogging already part of my life, it is means that, new blog is like a new life for me. (Sounds sooo GOOD!!!)

So, who am I?

~ 19 on this October~Malaysian~Sabahan (but schooling at Selangor, Kuala Lumpur, Labuan then)~Blogging, listening to music, watching movie, for sure socializing :D and normally I'll enjoying all the things I do.

want to know me better???

Facebook User                           Twitter User                         Instacanvas Artist

not all the above??? just leave me a comment to ask about me more 

..\/, PEACE