Friday, December 27, 2013

Trust II

Bullshit of
She asked me, "Macam mana nak percaya org"
So I made her wait for it.


Of course Joe Moore have a point, but it doesn't fit her question. Well, everybody have a trust issue. I believe most of us heard these trust quotes,


Trust yourself, then you will know how to live. 
Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that reflection. 
Trust is like a paper once it's crumpled it can't be perfect. 

Now, trust seems like not a small matter.  It is! You know you couldn't build a relationship without a trust! Yes, relationship has to be built on trust. Trust is what allows us to have meaningful relationships with other people; without it, you cannot converse without wondering whether the person speaks truthfully. You would be unable to believe what another is saying. I do think there are different levels of trust and that being skeptical of many others is wise. Without any trust at all, however, life becomes quite lonely.

But, trust isn't that all, trust, in the other hand is a confident belief. The confidence arising from one's own experience of a consistent pattern of past instances. Trust is different from belief and faith due to its basis being own past experience which places the degree of confidence higher than in the case of a belief and lower than in the case of a faith. Thus, being able to depend upon someone or something completely and knowing that what you believe to be true is true, that's trust.

It's so much to be digested I guess. Just if you're asking me "what is trust?", instead of "how to trust a person?", for sure I know the answer, I always keep in my mind, trust is hope, trust is I know the truth is being told, trust is acceptance that something is what it appears to be. Trust is when you know beyond the shadow of a doubt that another person will be there for you. 

When you're crossing a bridge. When you drive across that bridge, you trust the engineers and contractors to have built that bridge to last. You expect that you will get from one side to the other without incident. That is trust.



Dear you, I have no answer for your question, I'm sorry, but I really do. But for whatever trust is, I just want you to know, trust isn't something we can build from it's very beginning. It's always there since the birth of every living soul. I put my trust to everybody, and get knowing that other put theirs to me. And I want you to do the same. Because to be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved. Because a person who trusts nobody is apt to be the kind of person nobody trusts. Because we grow in time to trust the future for our answers. 

In the end, it's not really about how to trust others, it's a matter of trusting yourself. I hope you get me. Really hope you do.

Monday, December 16, 2013

That one wyrd story.

Bullshit of


I've cold fever since a week ago. It's like the ocean's ebb and flow, I was better at certain hours, and worse at the next hours. Within these seven bad days, what I'm doing is sleeping for 12 hours per day, get my meal (just if I could force myself to have one), doing my assignments, projects, and promoting future events that I responsible for.

Couldn't really manage my time lately, my laundries have been there for like a week. Room isn't as clean as it used to. I get disgusted with my own self. This is not me.

Until this morning, I slept for 12 hours just like yesterday, from 2230++ but with a nightmare. Heard someone's knocking on my door, everything seems so real. I do remember that I don't lock my door before I get to sleep last night, hoping that someone will wake me up for fajr prayer on this morning. So I started wonder who's on the other side of the door.

I felt like I'm, for real, waking up from my bed and open that door. But everything I see is just a dark alley which I don't familiar with. In the other end of that alley, there's a dime light. That weird dream made the light talking, asking me,

"How's your iman today?"

I was shocked. I'm hurt inside my heart. I feel like I'm stabbed. I'm spiritually dying. That one question made me up from my sleep. Sitting on one side of the bed, crying.





Jikalau tuhan pemilik entiti sang cahaya, kepada tuhanlah aku berserah. Amin.


Saturday, December 7, 2013

Gravity

Bullshit of
I always wonder about the world, the nature, the law. I love how things work. From an event, to another event. The consequence. Occurred. Related.

It's just like when I was taking my pre university study about a year and a half ago. I was listening to my physics lecturer on 'Force' topic. Quite boring at first but suddenly something caught my eyes at that time. Gravity.

"How normal human beings could standing with only two legs? Why not chairs, or tables do the same thing?" He asked.

I'm an active person for everyone's information. For freaking sure I'll answer that question if I really knew the answer, too bad I was not yet. But then someone shouted from one edge of the lecture hall.

"Gravity, sir? If there's no gravity, of course we cannot sit or stand right now." Serious?!! I was like, seriously??? The lamest answer I ever heard. Then my lecturer replied, "Almost there, it's a good point but not answering my question.". 

"Center of gravity, sir?" I'm gambling an idea on the answer I guess.

"Can you explain more?"

"I can't really get the full concept, but I think it's because we, human beings can handle our own body to make the center of gravity of ourselves balance. Once the center of gravity is on the most stable position, then we can stand perfectly, isn't it?"

What do you think? Now do you ever wonder about what I've thought before? Well, I actually have the same thought since I was only in standard 3 or 8 years old on that time. Center of gravity is one of the topics in my Mathematics subject syllabus. It's so fun to see the world's architecture standing in this mother earth perfectly because it has center of gravity at it's most stable position. I do always believe on that concept.

Until one fine day, thinking about my dad as he used to take both of us, me and my little bro out with his RXZ, he always tell us to hold him tight on any corner and just move our body to the left if he's turning left or vice versa. And I couldn't figure it out why, because I saw things' stability cause by center of gravity. I couldn't figure why is something which more to the left must be kept on the left?

But I'd no idea how to find the answer until I'm form 4, or 16 years old. Newton's first law of motion. Inertia. Yes it is. Inertia is also balancing things, as things that move will keep moving in a straight line at constant linear velocity until there are external forces applied on it.

And by that time, I do understand how life works. In life, we have to follow the laws. It's obvious that we cannot follow one rule for the whole of our life. Newton's laws itself cannot be applied on everything because of the forces that acting as a resistance. So do the same with human's life, isn't it?







Be flexible is compulsory.
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