Friendship

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   So, I asked her for what reason she leaved me behind. "You did something harsh and never ask for apology. That's why you never deserve to be called friend" followed by a status update, "Broken friendship". Fuck your life, girl! Call me egoist, while you no longer different from me. Losing you, personally, makes no change to my life. So, STFU!!!"

To be honest, I don't wanna say that to her, she's like my sister, for real. But the way she did anything on me, since that day never seems like I have any hope. I just wanna care anything happened between us, too bad I can't. 

At first, I thought we can still be friend. Without that really close relation. Done this for your own good (as I told you before), however, everything misunderstood by you. And now, you make it like I'm the one who's the actual criminal. Dear sister, just so you know, for everything I've done to you, I'm sorry. And for everything you've done to me, I'll forgive it. 

You're not only a best friend, you're my other half.

I hate losing a friend, either good or bad one. Because my whole life, I learnt much more from friendship than anything else. I may not a good friend to someone, or some people, as they are also the same. However, the bad one, like serious, left the foot print the deppest than others. 

My life is fulled by people named friends the most, since I move around without any of my family members. So, for me, my friends are also a family. Especially for them who are close enough to me. And losing them, are just the same as losing my own family members.

For certain type of people, the might not even care losing any of their friend, especially the bad one. Because they might think that it'll be a good thing to them, as their life will be easier without that friend. If you are one of this type of people, I wanna tell you that your thought is a total wrong. Because that's not how life working. God creates evil, so we'll think for the good and the bad. Because He wanted us to learn. Learn a lesson from problem. Not vice versa, as run from it or just letting it just like that doesn't making us better. "I hope you'll learn the lesson, because I've learnt mine."

"Dear Nashua, I've no regret for everything happened, honestly"

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That sin.

That sin, 

that dirty kiss again. 

I'm so happy for having you, honestly. 

But each and every time we meet up, 

I'll worry for everything that happen in sequence. 

I'm just not really wanted for anything that is happened between us. 

Because I knew it, 

from the very beginning, 

that I were wrong. 

And what we've done is the real absolute wrong. 

Everything just went wrong. 

While the relationship itself is so damn freaking wrong. 

I knew it, from the very beginning, that we are not meant to be together. Because we really are.

Someone told me before, that consent and pleasant is two different things. God may let us make it happen, but He'll never ever ever gonna pleased for everything in between :( 

P/s: I love Him much more than I love you. Just wish you knew, I shouldn't let you, I'm sorry, boo.

I'm not fun.

Bersenandung azan asar, 

menghirup teh hijau yang langsung tiada kemanisan dalamnya, 

sambil-sambil menghayati kehangatan terik matahari 

yang dibawa bayu melalui tingkap petak di sebelah meja. 

Hati berbisik, 

"Ah, indahnya dunia".

Three in the air if you just don't care, bak kata Hadzrin Aqmal,

"Jangan dipersetankan semua itu"

So what ever! It's been asar already, but I've no thought to be in jemaah. Blogging just have my passion more (dasar setan). So, what ever :P

Well, it's not your business btw, keep it my way then. I just wanna talk about something that I think, personally think it's compulsory for everyone to know. It's a must, like for each and every person who think he deserves a good life, now and hereafter.

It's about making fun. Yeah, I like making fun of others. Ehem ehem, I mean, I were. But no longer now. Honestly, I like being an honest innocent child as me in my primary school. There was no such thing like making fun of others. Do you have that memory, your childhood memory, when someone making you cry, there's someone else will try to persuade you? Don't you have one of those kind? Hurm, I have a lot.

I'm not a strong kid years ago, I don't have many friends just like today. I'm kinda lucky for not being bullied by my not-really-friends. However, I still have that passion to shine, like serious! So, there's a good girl who bright enough at that time teaches me to be like her. Another lucky moment, perhaps :)

Nah, the bad news started when I continuing my secondary school out of my district. Meets many type of people, honestly taught me more meaning of life. Yet, those bad type person included. 

Considered normal actually, if you'd bullied by the seniors. I don't even give a damn to that. But it's hurt me the most when people keep making fun of, not only me and, my family. It's not cool, dude!

I'm not gonna lie, I do ever make fun of other person in  my life. However, mostly, I'm not the one who started that bitchy things (if I ever start first, I'm really sorry). Because I know how it's hurt, because I felt it, because I feels the same. I do. 

If you're a Muslim, I'm proud to tell you that make fun of others is forbidden.

Now, I'm a big boy, I'm my mom's man. Gonna be 20 on this October, I thought there will be no more story, such story. Too bad I'm wrong. Meeting new people during my undergraduate study is not cool, because they behave the same as my old one. 

"Dear that particular person, 

I don't have time to comfy you every time you make fun of me, or someone else. Get a life! You're big enough to think, like seriously. Else you don't have that big brain to differentiate what's good and what's bad, then just carry on your hopeless life."

Just so you know, being sarcastic is not my real style, but if I do, I'll make it hotter than 'Hot and Spicy' fried chicken from KFC!!! 

Again, making fun of others is never cool to me, 

it'll never and ever. 

And, if you think that I'm not fun for having that thought.

Yes, I'm not fun at all. 

So, just STFU ..l.,

Off to asar.

Prejudice.

People often being prejudiced, most of them, and I do same. Yeah, it's not a good thing to be practice. 

For me, being prejudiced is such a waste of energy. It's literally, and directly related to the heart, the feeling itself. My people said, bikin sakit hati. "Owh, what ever", the word I'll use to make myself away from being prejudiced to the people around me.

It'll look like I don't care, while actually I do. It just I don't wanna make it control myself. 'Cause I know prejudiced is something that just bring bad thing to me. 

Well, can't you see it clearly? It's pretty clear. You'd be prejudiced for example, means you have some thought to someone. It can be good, nor bad thought. But from my experiences, mostly it is a bad one. So, what if it's a wrong thought? Fitnaa.

Don't be one then, because you already knew the reason why.

Nah, lemme tell you something that others don't know how to differentiate them one another. It is about prejudice, stereotype and discrimination. Stereotype often refer to the general thought, prejudice refer to the attitude towards the people that had been stereotyped, while discrimination is the actual action. 

Since I'd talked about discrimination before (which actually a total rubbish post), I just wanna show that these three things are a total different things, yet share something the same, negativity. So, let's suck them all!!!