Oh God, give me strength.
What happen yesterday. I made a call, just like the other day, but yesterday sounds little bit serious. I asked how far can we be in this relationship? Then I got an unexpected answer :(
"We're still young, we're haven't met each other yet, I'm not a loyal person"
I heard it clearly, word by word, my brain start translating, the neurons working on the inputs, then I realize that he actually saying that we are not in serious relationship. Oh Lord... Don't you know I gave everything for you :(
As the consequence, I took a drastic action, deactivating my social network account where I can see him. Am I giving up? No, not yet. Giving up is not my styles, I just need few moments, alone. I can't face the world with this kind of feeling, the bad feeling about myself. Yes, I'm the one who bad, for expecting others to be like what I think.
As the consequence, I took a drastic action, deactivating my social network account where I can see him. Am I giving up? No, not yet. Giving up is not my styles, I just need few moments, alone. I can't face the world with this kind of feeling, the bad feeling about myself. Yes, I'm the one who bad, for expecting others to be like what I think.
"If happy ever after did exist,
I would still be holding you like this"
Damn, this freak thing really killing my mind. I can't think rationally. Down. Down. Down. Then I talk to a friend, he said,
"If youre considering giving up on someone, you probably already have, but giving up on your relationship doesn't always mean you don't love them anymore."
When we talk about giving up, he added,
"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength. Moving on can mean that you're making a choice to be happy rather than hurt. It doesn't mean that you're giving up.Giving up and letting go are not the same thing."
The moment we're talking about all these things, made me realize, I still have something even if I lost my love, such friendship, family relationship. This one friend is the best example, each and every time I talk to him, he always gained me my strength back, thank God I still having a good friend by my side. Before we end our conversation, he told,
"Before you give up, think of the reason why you held on so long."
"Don't give up on love, because there is always someone who loves you. Even if it's not the person you were hoping for."
Dear God, I thank You for giving me this life.
Dear love, lose you means I loses something, not everything.
Dear friend, thanks for giving back my strength.
Sincerely, a broken heart PEACE narrator.
